Hi all - I'm still lurking. It's been interesting here - kind of a hurry up and wait. I have an appointment with the surgeon on the 24th .... Not easy waiting a long time - talked (messaging) with my FNP and she said that they look at everything and the most critical get in the soonest - and that she knows that it is difficult to wait, but she says it will happen. My kids have been attentive and I've spent a lot of time trying to get them to understand that it will be ok (whatever ends up) and they need to calm down a little bit. In my house we have a saying that everything is done "Ken's Way" and my DH is trying so hard to make everything perfect and for everyone to do everything NOW .... The only one that doesn't do things Ken's Way is his wife .... I'm having to explain that his need for all to drop everything and do everything is very overwhelming and that we need to let it ride out .... I am pro-active, but I also need to try to live my life with everyone being calm....and my problem is that I live my life loving my family so much that it is a little heartbreaking not to make it all better for them. Kind of a circle right now.
So, we have a cruise the middle of August and we will lose 50% to cancel right now - and most of this cruise was done with FCC, talked with DH and he says that we don't know if I will be having chemo during that time point (it is now in 2 lymph nodes) - so we aren't canceling until after everything is figured out. I will go along with that - I'm hoping that we could reschedule to next year in August - funny how I would give up a med cruise next year for Alaska and I'm the one that hates winter/cold/and snow!!!
I weighed myself this morning and I am down 1.4# from the last time I weighed (I think that was 2 weeks ago). I have been eating fine and have been staying healthy ... probably having a bit too much wine (but what the heck).
Thanks everyone for listening - will try to be better at posting. Jan